Up until I was 26 years old, I had no regular prayer life, did not attend church regularly, was not in a fellowship, did not have a two way relationship with God and didn’t think about the 10 commandments on an everyday basis. Then in 1997, I allowed my faith in God to be questioned, which resulted in 11 years of wandering in uncertain faith. During 2008, I had a dream that I was falling into a deep dark hole. I was crying to God, saying that I really loved Him. When I awoke, I had a huge ache in my heart and was still sobbing the words, “I love you”. Looking back, I think this was God’s way of telling me where I was going if I didn’t change my ways - a permanent death. One day, I was reading a book about a cyclist. There was a picture of him in an accident. I noticed he had a cross on, which made me wonder about the whereabouts of the cross a nun from my old high school had given me. I searched for it and found it straight away. I then got down on my knees and prayed to have Jesus back in my heart. I got an answer right away and felt as if a whole weight had been lifted from my shoulders. In 2010, I studied Montessori Philosophy, which involved a lot of self reflection and brought me closer to God. This was a major growth period where I saw my life, who I was and the people around me, more clearly than I did before. This led to some major changes in my life. By January 2012, I had progressed to a much closer relationship with Jesus, but He showed me that I was still locked in my own will. For the next two years my relationship with Jesus progressed in depth and I progressed in relying on Him more. In 2015, I was unexpectedly alone for the end of year holidays.. I was calm because I understood it was for a good reason. I was prompted to start a Bible study plan. I felt God pulling me closer, offering me forgiveness for my sins, giving me grace and mercy. I really felt touched by the Holy Spirit. God made sure that my holiday was not lonely. He filled the days with Bible study, phone calls, food preparation, scrapbooks for my daughters, The Bible Series on Netflix, Bible study and a visit from a friend. In February 2016, I was prompted to attend a local, Sabbath keeping church.. I felt right at home - truly like a child in God’s house! My celebration of the Sabbath, led to an increase in prayer, scripture reading and fellowship meetings - all which have deepened my faith and understanding in our Father, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. A few months later, I got the sign to ask about being baptized, and started a baptism course. The course added to my understanding and deepened my faith and fellowship. Circumstances meant that Easter 2017 would also be spent alone. Again, God used the opportunity to bring me closer, through preachings of a Pastor’s podcasts and a change in the way I studied the Bible. This has taken my understanding and faith to yet another level. On 20th May 2017, I was baptized - the most important event in my life. Some years ago, I would never have said that, but I now fully understand the importance and power of our Father, His Son and the Holy Spirit. By Jesus’ sacrifice and God’s grace, I have been redeemed, set free, to return to God, of my own free will - to have the Holy Spirit transform and guide me every day so that through Jesus Christ, I can become the child that God meant me to be. To God be the glory! Scriptures that remind me of my journey back to Jesus Philippians 1:6, Psalm 30, Psalm 40, Psalm 145, 1 Peter 1:1-5, John 14:27, 1 Peter 2:9, Ephesians 4:5-6